Maybe you guys can give me some advice.

Maybe you guys can give me some advice.

Ok, so here's my big problem.
(I apologize for any typos in advance, I'm tired:P)

I will be 23 next week. I live with my bf. My share of the rent is $150 and I buy the groceries. I also pay my own car insurance, cell phone bill, cc bill, student loan bill, etc. I am about $15,000 in debt. $12000 or so from student loans, $1500 medical bills, and the rest in cc bills from college. I never finished college. I did 2 years and dropped out cause I wasn't sure what I really wanted to major in, nothing really attracted me and I figured I could just use the time to work to be able to move in with the bf. I currently only work part-time and earn JUST enough to pay everything, but really nothing extra.

Last December, my brother got this crazy idea in my head. The military. I originally tried for the Air Force - The National Guard, because it's part time and they give you a shitload of money to pay back loans, tuition assistance, and a small but useful stipend if you attend school full time. I was turned down cause I have too many tattoos.
So i tried the Navy. I was accepted and I am in the Delayed Entry Program. I was actually supposed to go to boot camp in the middle of April, but I hurt my knee while trying to train. So they are waiting for for my knee to be okay before I pick a new date.

At first, I was excited about this. I have complete respect for members of the military, I would have a full-time job for several years, I would get tuition assistance while in the Navy and the G.I. Bill for school money when I got out. Yay, my financial worries are at an ease.

Now I'm having 2nd thoughts.
- The physical requirements are extremely tough for me. I have never been athletic, and I'm just a small tiny wimpy girl. My brother is a Marine recruit and he says he can definitely get me ready, but it will take time. After about 2 weeks of us training, I hurt my knee and have not been able to do anything for the last month. The reason I hurt my knee is cause of my flat feet and now I need to wear inserts or when I have the money, orthotics to give me arch support in order to be able to run without hurting myself.
On one hand I believe I can do it, and on the other hand I don't think I could physically and/or mentally take it.

- I like the idea of discipline and respect. But I haven't been seeing much of it from my recruiter or the other recruiters in the office. They've really turned me off from the idea of being in the military:
-- My recruiter usually takes up to 5 days to return my calls. Today he was supposed to be here at 10am to talk to me. It's now past 1 and there's no sign of him. We were supposed to work out a few times but he keeps canceling on me.
-- On the way home from MEPS. another recruiter drove me home. For about an hour, I was half asleep in the car but he was on the phone with some another Navy people. Apparently he's getting his own recruit office and wants to hire this female recruiter and only "hot girls make good recruiters". While at the office, several of the recruiters were talking about the Playboy mansion and how they'd leave their wives to go live there. My bf was really pissed off about that. Now those things usually wouldn't offend me, but to me it seemed like they were on official business, they were working and that's off the clock talk, not appropriate at that time/place and professionals should know better.
-- One recruiter telling me if I couldn't meet my minimum requirements for running, push ups and situps that I could just change my ship date - no problem. Then I go tell my recruiter a week later that I think it'd be best if I delayed my date another month or so and he tells me that I absolutely can not. I couldn't meet my requirements and my knee was pretty bad, I could barely walk let alone run but he said I had to get my ass to a hospital that DAY or be shipped out. Then my brother, the Marine recruit, who seems to have a much more honest recruiter, says that I can change my ship date if I want to, they cannot force me to go, and I didn't have to spend all that money to go to the hospital.

- I'll be away from the boyfriend for 4-5 years. Yes, I know I get time off but when you love someone, a few days here and there compared to living together...it's not the same, yanno?

- I won't have my own life for 4-5 years.

- I'm a very private person. Pretty anti-social. Bootcamp and barracks and ship living would not be good at all.

My parents are happy about this. My extended family and friends are not. My boyfriend is okay with it one day and not the next but has mentally prepared himself for me leaving for a few years.

I've been thinking maybe it's better for me to get another part time job. Use the money from my job now to pay off all my bills as usual and the money from a 2nd job to half save and half pay off debt. My dad also might be able to get me a job where he works. It would only be like $12 an hour, but I'd get to pick my full-time shifts and still keep my current job (just work less hours there). Then once I pay off all my debt, go back to school.

I don't want to be a broke bum forever. The one thing I know I want most in life is to own a house. I also want kids one day. I just don't know how to get there.

I even feel this resentment towards my parents, cause after some stupid decisions they became poor and have not been able to pull themselves back up. So, since then, I have never had any help from them. Most kids I know around my age or slightly younger still live at home, go to school, get to save the money they earn from their jobs cause their parents pay for everything. I've never had any help from them and I think that if I had, it wouldn't be so broke and I could have had a chance to start saving money. (The reason I had to move out is due to bad living conditions that were affecting my health but they really didn't care.)

So anyway poor_skills. I don't know whether I should join the military or try my second plan. This is tough and while no one can make the decision for me, any advice or insight you guys could give would be amazing. I love reading the posts here and you guys are some of the nicest, creative, intelligent, humble people on LJ!


ETA: I don't live at home anymore and don't expect my parents to help me out now. Sometimes I just get a bit jealous when I see my friends and coworkers who have it 10x easier and their paychecks can go into savings accounts but even when I was living at home my paycheck had to pretty much all go to bills. I know I could have it much worse and I am thankful that I don't. The living conditions at my parents kind of forced me out - they had many pets that I was severly allergic to but wouldn't do anything about. If they had actually cared about my health I could still be at home and be putting my rent money into a savings account or to pay off my debt sooner.
I know I don't have much, but I am gratetful for what I do have. I have a semi-decent car (thanks to a little bit of lottery money), my boyfriends apartment is small and he doesn't have much money either, but we live in a nice neighborhood and the place is clean. I do appreciate the things that I have because I do work for it all myself but sometimes its hard when you see everyone around you just get everything handed to them and you have to struggle. I'm sure you guys can understand that a bit.

ETA 2: And that little blurb wasn't even the main part of my post, just some little addition that was just ranting.
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